A Cruel Dream

I had a cruel dream this morning. I don't mean a scary dream or a nightmare; those are common at times; being chased by a score of zombie cheerleaders or falling. No this didn't have Death as a theme. I view Death as an upcoming movie I am looking forward too (not too soon, so no worries). No this was the kind of dream that leaves you unsettled and 'off' for the rest of the day. and now, in the cold, harsh light of the day, I still can remember it. But how do I explain it to my friends; I have no problem relating my weird dreams-even my nightmares. But this...I guess it is more of the perspective and how we view whats important. Needless to say, I woke up, probably screaming "No!" I know I was gasping for air as I beat my pillow.

I had woken up early and laid there trying to get some sleep before actually getting up. So I closed my eyes and between 3:30 am and 5:00 am I dreamed. All I know I was talking with this pretty woman; initially she was a redhead. She changed to a blond and back to a redhead as we talked. About what? I have no idea. Though it seem liked we were getting to know each other, like a date. We then started playfully grabbing each other and hugging. She gave me some quick kisses on my neck. I then smiled and grabbed and took her in my arms for a deep kiss and... she faded away and I was left literally holding my pillow.

Some may laugh or find it funny. Not me. Not now. Not ever anymore.

Dreams (the night time variety)

I more than most know about dreams; I minored in Psychology in college so know just how screwed I am. Dreams are either your subconscious or perhaps if you believe-of things yet to come.  And if you even remember your dreams, that's something.

I remember a dream I had last night; as it woke me up gasping for air.

I was seated outside. A pretty woman who I did not know, came up to me and I stuck my hand up, like raising my hand to answer a question in class. She took my hand and kissed it tenderly and for a long time. She then helped me up and I kissed her lovingly and for a long time. Again, I did not know her.

I then said something that I can not believe.

"Are you a mechanic? Cause you just jump stared my heart."

I then woke up, Not sure if it was from the cheesy line or what.