Pictures in the Mind

Why is it that lack of sleep or maybe the early hours gets one philosophical?

You can try and share things with others, but they will never truly understand or appreciate why hat you are sharing is important, unless they were there too; to witness or experience the moment.

I am a professional photographer; though now the only pictures I take are with my cell phone or my mind. For those who don't know; I did have a studio and yes people actually paid me money to take their picture and I have had pictures published...so I am a professional. Just not currently. Anyway-I do have a portfolio, but the funny thing is that I have pictures in my head that will never be seen by anyone. Moments, people, places...many no longer with us. Am I selfish? No. I just u n d e r s t a n d.

I can share a picture. I can tell a story. But to 99.9% it will never convey the emotion, the tingle in the tongue moment of it because that person I am telling it too wasn't there. They may say the right words or look impressed, but they will never understand. Should I try to make them understand?

I wonder. Part of me, a big part, knows I will probably still try; to force memories and emotions of that time on others. That way maybe they will understand me a bit better. To understand why I am me. But will they really?

The pictures and times we all carry are sacred.

Star Trek: Renegades

Just watched Star Trek: Renegades. An 'independent' or 'web based' movie. The look was good, not bad special effects and it was nice seeing some familiar faces. Interesting story, neat 'villain' race. Although I am getting tired with every other alien race having the "I want the honor of the first kill" bit. I would have been satisfied with the 'honor of the last kill' which is what they said first and I thought was interesting.  I liked Chekov's office with the different Trek pictures. And the uniforms aren't bad, but almost a little plain. That being the good things said, let me count the ways it lacked, in my opinion.

This was like Star Trek: The Motion Picture. A lot going on and cramming it in one movie. Well maybe not in relation to the story, but definitely in relations to the characters. It was like a bad role play game; you had all the arch-types/stereo-types all together.

You had the Cardassian hating Bajoran. The token Cardassian. The reformed Borg.  A defective Betazoid. The disgraced doctor, who, I was surprised to see was Sean Young who had a love affair with the creator of the holographic doctor. Gary Graham is there too as.... something. and what looked like something from Star Wars. And the captain of these renegades is Kahn's daughter? Really?? Literally, they were a group of players who each wanted to 'play something different.'

I will say they did have a surprise or two, so the story isn't bad. But half way through it I cared more about Chekov's great grand-daughter that the crew of the Icarius. Maybe it was their acting abilities or lack of? I don't know Even now I half wish that the bad guys had killed them. But they couldn't or earth would have been destroyed.

And they set it up for sequels or a series. All in all it was ok. 6.5 out of 10.